Four Years Later

Hello, universe. I have no idea why I suddenly had the urge to write. I haven't reread any of these previous posts yet. I looked at the dates and the photos that were featured in some of the posts and I guess we were still back in Covid days. Actually, Covid was just starting out. Sinbad was still alive, my mom was still living with me, and I was still working full time. Obviously, so much has happened during those past four years. I'd love to revisit certain events, but not right now. It would take days, possibly weeks to update and write everything I've been through and experienced. I've been concentrating on my YouTube channel and trying hard to keep creating and doing things that make me happy. It's been a year and a half since I was forced to retire. My work life hasn't changed much, but the salary sure has. It's very scary at times not having a nice monthly paycheck rolling in with bonuses to supplement the lifestyle I've been enjoying for the past several years. I feel like I'm never comfortable and always trying to figure out how I'm going to juggle and manage whatever comes in the future.

Lately I've been having the strangest of dreams. My sleep habits at the moment are horrible. I know I need more sleep, but I'm not tired. Is it fear or adrenalin that is keeping me awake? I don't feel like I'm a victim of insomnia, but I do feel like my brain is on overload. I feel like I'm always thinking and over-stimulated. I wonder how people can ever be bored. I feel like I have so many things I want to do and I'm not doing all the things I need to during the day so my mind keeps racing. I procrastinate and then I get so focused with something that nothing interrupts that focus. I KNOW I need to better manage myself and be better at organization. So maybe the blogging needs to restart again. I'm not going to schedule anything or commit to anything, but I think I want to just write down whatever comes to mind. I remember my Diaryland days when writing every day was so therapeutic and the people I met through that journal inspired me and entertained me so much. It's amazing to think that I met some of those people in real life! The evolution of social media made that happen. Crazy, isn't it?

Well, let's take this first step and see where it goes.

xox